Category: Life

May 9 / Sweet Challenge

Days here are given to the music. A string, a pitch, pressing the sixth in the fourth fret that with the capo would is actually the first, second and third in the second as well. One, two, three … has formed a well-known melody. I thought it was more difficult … like everything is done, when you finally do it you discover all was about to ” just do it” .

I download a new book: singing for dummies. I laugh with the cat and I looked at him with apology eyes in advance. As my only company…  it has ear to hear the amplified mouse steps. Misha do not blame you if you run away for half a day and come back later when I’m already sick of notes and “E minor” ” Gs “, ” Cs” and red fingers. I recorded(me) singing and playing to watch and listen to Tulia .

I always find a corner on the carpet in each house, where I sit with open computer, guitar or a book.  Owning the corner I spend hours in absurdities. Here in the house of Paihia a corner where it receives sunshine in the afternoon  in front of the window that I have wide open. The wind makes me shake a little bit but the sun warm up my nude skin. Revolution I said! with torso and chest on the air, over the balcony the sun passes from right to left. Another day.

I go to the market. A house under construction and Kiwi workers with thick legs and very short shorts. Here the practice of Rugby have them fit, but these workers do not whistle like in Mexico although these ones  would not bother me.

This town reminds me of Veracruz … because the humidity, the colorful houses in each mountain, and the sea at the foot . I laugh of the absurd of the mind trying always to compare, to make a reference with the “known”.  A guy with flirty smile tell me where is it and finally I come back with a huge lettuce as carrying a bouquet of flowers: with this I eat for a couple of days.  I set on my way to see the sea and the open skies of this place. I am careful of not drop the three dollars out of my pocket with which I will buy the food for tomorrow.

How long I sit here? Ha .. Yes … Yes. I am.  All that exists now is the sense of Being.  Not to be something, someone, just only Being .

I am immersed in absurdities for hours. I already told you? I read somewhere that we could all say absurd things, the bad thing is to solemnly say them… I laugh for me then when I publish this on the website. A new game. I don’t know how is going to work but as everything in life … the little pieces are going to fit together like tetris with each other to fall into its own place. And what do I say? as if everything has to fall into their “own ” place when  is the fact they have fallen “there” which makes  ” their own place ” .

Absurd things:  Wake up in the morning without memories of yesterday, touch my body try to see who’s here.  Baking bread at midnight with the recipe of the German girls. Translate videos to  Spanish justbecauseyes. To feel constantly  in love… and no other is there, just Life itself .

And of course, write without a particular purpose, just for doing it.

What Desafío Sweet is?

Is a Creativity Dynamic that started in Caminomundos.  The challenge is to write one Blog post for 16 continuous days with an objective beyond the literature itself.

HERE:

16 Posts/ personal essays for… just for do it.
16 Actions to promote or kick-start a project of research consulting.
2 Languages
One “let’s see what happen”

May 7 / Poetry

Once I believed in doing important things.

Once I believed  I needed to know more.

Once I thought  I should eat healthier, exercise more.

Once I believed  I could help everyone.

Once I believed I should take (me) seriously and stop being a child.

Once I believed I should be the best person I could be.

Once I thought it was important to change.

Once I thought I needed more time.

 

Once I believed I should work very hard.
Once I believed in the denial of work and money .

Once I believed I needed to travel to find myself.
Once I believed I needed to sit still in one place.

Once I believed I should be open, more artistic and creative to grow my spirit.
Once I believed I should be quieter, more introspective.

Once I believed I should care about politics.
Once I believed in the denial of politics.

Once I believed I should be radical.
Once I believed being radical it not makes sense.

Once I believed it was important to explore sexuality more.
Once I believed to explore sexuality did not matter.

Once I believed I should live Love Stories.
Once I believed to live love stories did not matter.

Once I believed I should live intensely.

Once I believed everything  was very complex.

Once I believed I should fight with the mind.

 

Once I believed I should forget everybody and every story, because they were heavy.

Once I believed that I was living the life  (as something I did, planned, or acted).

 

Once I believed that EVERYTHING I was it was named  Tulia.

What Desafío Sweet is?

Is a Creativity Dynamic that started in Caminomundos.  The challenge is to write one Blog post for 16 continuous days with an objective beyond the literature itself.

HERE:

16 Posts/ personal essays for… just for do it.
16 Actions to promote or kick-start a project of research consulting.
2 Languages
One “let’s see what happen”

Action 1:  To create a website and make it public.

May 4 / Sweet Challenge

Something that “always” has been here can not start. But may nevertheless be recognized, dis-covered. Right?
– I had been removing the cover. As I told a guy yesterday afternoon.

Just because today I have shiny eyes. Any particular reason, goal or challenge. There will be maybe a name at the end of these 16 days of continuous writing. There is nothing suspenseful or philosophy on this, just I can not name anything. All the names seem made of steam. It’s no genius either, I think it is rather the absence of a specific purpose (or ideas if you want to see it like that!).

Names: Places, countries, people, lovers, seas, the name of Tulia. All with the purpose of having no purpose. It is curious that this page has the name of “Tulia Gonzalez” and at the same time, I feel exactly That! I see a kind of “impersonality” in personality: Tulia Gonzalez is a project-page-person. I’ve given the name to something else and I’ll stay as only I… Sweet no name: Sweetly without name.

There are ideas, sometimes, but are not necessary. There is energy, sometimes to do things, to write, translate, to make research… entertains the mind with things but are not necessary. They are not analyzed neither. Is dropped and is allowed to become whatever is need to become. There is action in no action. And even the “no plan”, the dropping, the renounce, also loses its significance.

 

I said: Let’s do some consulting, something professional in all my lightness, and I trust that in some crazy way I can do it and if not, also is fine…

I say: Let’s write in the Creativity Challenge of Caminomundos. There are no words now but I trust the words will be there if needed, and if not … that’s also fine.

I say: Let’s live in that house for a couple of months … and I trust I’ll have money to live there… but if not, that’s fine too.

 

In all this movement something is still. Something is recognized in contrast to this immutable BACKGROUND. The little where putting together, just for nothing in particular actually. Just for today breathe air of autumn in the southern hemisphere. Just for today have a morning coffee in the porch under the sun. Just for take a bath in the darkness, and in the closed eyes be AWARE of have disappeared, have melted. It’s amazing not feel the boundary between the skin and the “outside” between the skin and the bath water… where one begins and the other ends?

– Days have become the same, but things are still arising on them.-

Let’s no name for now. For now the names can stay floating in the mist. For now I’m just saying: Yes… Ahaa… Yes.

What Desafío Sweet is?

Is a Creativity Dynamic that started in Caminomundos.  The challenge is to write one Blog post for 16 continuous days with an objective beyond the literature itself.

Here:

16 Posts/ personal essays for… just for do it.
16 Actions to promote or kick-start a project of research consulting.
2 Languages
One “let’s see what happen”